Early..

Woke up early because my cats were destroying everything in the kitchen. Dragged the bread all over the place, and when I woke up there was breadcrumbs everywhere.. I don't know what has gotten into them.. fleas make cats crazy.. Me too..

Today's my dad's birthday! I am taking him to Atlantic city to Bobby Flay's steakhouse! I'm more excited than he is, I think. I always love going to new places. It'll be nice just being with my parents for a night.. and give my fiance some time to do whatever he wants :P haha.

Sorry again for being distant, there's so much stupid stuff going on- always.

I got a massage the other day, it was very enjoyable.. The massage therapist was a guy though, he called me 'baby' a lot and kind of rubbed my bum for a while too.. Is this normal? It seemed strange to me but I've never gotten a massage before..


I wanna know about my followers though
:]

I'm curious,
- what is your name?
- where do you live?
- what do you like to do?


I wanna actually have some sort of relationship with my readers.
If you're reading about my life all the time, I should at least know something about you ! :]

Well I have to get ready to go to AC! I'll let you know if it was as good as people say :P


love always!

Rub down.

I am feeling beautiful today.
Not that I don't all the time, but just today I feel like I have a little extra shine :]

Maybe because today I am getting a massage? Or because I am catching up with old friends? Or because I have the best guy in the world?
Who knows.. but today I really sparkle. :P

Just thinking about body issues a lot, today..
Why are girls SO insecure? I def. have those days, as well.. but where in the world does it come from? I guess the media.. if every one feels like how the media portrays 'beautiful' is wrong, than why doesn't anyone ever stand up for themselves?

I personally find every person beautiful.
We were ALL put on this earth for some reason or another, and we're all SO special! This is truly a mean mean world.. I can't take it sometimes.

And I am not talking only women, though.. I know men have to feel like this as well! Thinking that all women like tall, beefy looking guys. Me, personally.. It doesn't even matter.. I LOVE a funny guy. If you make me laugh, you've already won me over. I have like larger men, men of different races, shorter men.. I don't care. If you have a great personality, nothing else matters.. Like I said, everyone is beautiful.. but to be attracted to someone, might be a tad different. I might not be attracted to someone, but if they're funny, suddenly they drive me crazy!.. in a good way. Maybe that's just me though.

I know my blog isn't super successful, and for me few followers- I love you- and if you're reading this- thank you.. but if you are a WOMAN/GIRL with body issues- read this and read it good..

Men like girls of all shapes and sizes. They just HATE when you're insecure, because if you don't like you- it makes it hard for them to like you.. Guys are super easy.. Most just want a chill girl, easy going, friendly, non-depressing.. Everyone just wants to be happy in the end.. Think about all of the people on this planet! THERE IS SOMEONE FOR YOU! May not be someone famous, or someone rich..

But if you're holding such high standards, than I don't ever want to hear ANOTHER word about how men are shallow, because you are too.

Not defending men, or women.. just saying.
EVERYONE IS BEAUTIFUL.

Shine on, kids! <33

It's been a few days

Sorry for being so distant! Didn't mean to be.. I found out that my kitties have FLEAS!
So I have been trying to de-flea my cats/apartment.. it's just not happening.

ANYONE HAVE ANY ADVICE??!?!?!
I wanna get rid of these buggers.. and I miss hugging my kitties!
I've never been through this before, and I'm pretty sure that its the apartment itself that was carrying the fleas, and when I brought my cats from my moms house- they got em :[

Anything I can do? I also complained of a stupid leak in my room- its been a month and still nothing. I wanna legally get out of my lease! I can't take it, this rent is not worth this crappy place!!

I had to actually sleep in a hotel for a night, 100 bucks! And it was THE WORST. I don't know how this place is even open! Gross.. the floor was wet, the sheets were dirty and the comforter smelled like it was tucked under some gross persons armpit! ew.. shoot me!??!?

OH AND GUESS WHAT GUYS!!
I booked my honeymoooon!!! :D :D :D

So excited.. we decided on St. Lucia, but i'm worried cause it's in September [hurricane season].

Has anyone been there? How is it? I'm super excited.



That's it I suppose.. Not much is on my mind, except the stupid fleas :[

Take care, Loves!

About my buddy, Sabina Rose..

I'm thinking abouut her so much today.
Such a horrible story, I can't believe of all the people- it happened to you..

For the people who didn't know Sabina, here is her story..


http://www.philly2philly.com/politics_community/the_water_cooler/2010/6/4/44267/rape_and_murder_sabina_rose_odonnell_northern_lib">


I can't even talk about it, it hurts so much. I still think about her every single day.. How could someone do that to her? She was truly an angel, sweetest girl in the WORLD.

I haven't seen Sabina in.. 3 years, I suppose. I met her through a mutual friend. Even though we weren't best friends, she was still a friend.. and it still affects me every day.

Sabina just loved dancing.. So much. Every time I'd see her, she'd dance. She was so good. On top of that, that girl could model. Took GORGEOUS pictures. Her look was so unique.. Her smile would draw you to her in a room full of people. It's so beautiful.. And to think I will never see her again, absolutely kills me.

She died so terribly.. and I just pray in my mind that it was fast.. Please, don't have made Sabina suffer.. I can't bare it. And her poor family.. Ugh.

The way I found out, was I was babysitting, and on my phone- when on her facebook.. And I read all these comments saying "I CANT BELIEVE SOMEONE WOULD DO THIS TO YOU! RIP" and in my head, I was like.. WHAT? I just talked to her last week!

Seriously, heartbroken. I miss you beans..






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Miss you sweet angel.. <3

Robot, maybe.

Exactly how I feel today.
Doing the same thing every wednesday, work. than babysit.
Doesn't bother me much- I enjoy making money :D


PLEAASEEE give me feedback on this one..
I invited all of the friends that I want to come to my wedding, just to pretty much get a headcount and find out who is coming..
And one of my bridesmaids finds out that a girl she doesn't like from high school is going to be there.. and so she tells me that she is no longer going to be in my wedding, nor attend.

Am I wrong for inviting my friend? I personally don't think so .. at all.

I think she's being crazy imature, like grow up!
Or am I too harsh?


That's pretty much it today folks.. I'll post in the morning.
I'd LOVE feedback!

I'm a bitch today..

And I can care less.

It's that time of the month [TMI?] and every little thing is infuriating me..

I had a 6 hour shift at work, which isn't bad at all.. but does it have to be so hot? I drove home in my car with the AC on full blast, and it did nothing whatsoever.. came in my apartment and put on shorts and a tank top- put the air on, and here I am.. Writing a blog.

Me and the fiance got in a fight last night.. That's the thing with us. We love each other so much, but when we fight, we fight hard.. there's like no such thing as an argument.. but when the fight's over, its over forever.. Would you say that's healthy or no?
Everyone gets in fights though, right?

I am scared to death of losing my job.. It's something I always think about. :( I am definetly lucky to have a job right now anyway, but people lose jobs all the time these days..

My mother wants me to go over to her apartment tonight for dinner.. Do I go, or not? I'm not in that kind of a mood where I can just deal with my father.. I would end up saying something to him, and that'd be .. complete hell.

See, my father is a very very stubborn man.. Never thinks he is wrong about ANYTHING. You can prove him wrong, and he still won't admit it. It's terribly frustrating.. He's almost impossible to please. He only wanted a daughter.. not a son.. And I have an older brother. All growing up he treated me amazing. I was his princess, ya know? But that made my brother just hate me that much more.. If my older brother ever got him mad, I would have to see some stuff that I wish I didn't.. and if I didn't see it, I was hearing it.. Anyway, once I hit a certain age, I was no longer his 'little girl'. I was growing up.. I talked back, was the typical teen.. And that's when he startes to stop liking me as well. .

I feel terrible for my brother, for his father not loving him.. but it wasn't super easy for me, either.. Being treated like a princess to like dirt in a short amount of time.. It's hard, still.. I miss my daddy.

But tonight if I go, it will be the same.. I'll say hi, he'll just look at me.. We'll eat dinner, he'll have that look on his face.. Oh, bloggers, I wish I could even explain this look.. It's the worst. He always looks furious.. Makes you scared to do anything wrong.. Than he'll go in his room, and get mad at my mother asks anything of him. That makes me mad too.. and makes me feel guilty for moving out in the first place. I was kind of like her escape.

Well, I feel like this is getting a little long..
I should cut it short.

I'm really not a bitch, though..
Maybe today I just have very little patience..
Can't he just be happy for once?

Hey, if you guys have any tips you think would help, I'd love to hear.

Enjoy the rest of your day, bloggers!